These two guys from our town died on a ski trip in British Columbia. A third is in critical condition. They went to the public school. Today, we had a moment of silence for them, the flags were at half mast, and on Facebook, roughly 20-40 of my friends have joined various groups mourning them.
Is there some polite way of expressing how I’m apathetic to the whole situation? I don’t really think so. I’ve heard that they were in a restricted zone, which just removed all my sympathy because it was a stupid idea anyway. The groups on Facebook have pictures of them in girl wigs, lending this impression that they’re the party-going, who-gives-a-shit-I’m-a-teenager type. I never knew them, their families or really any mutual friends, but because I happen to live 10km away from them, I should feel bad.
I have a rough enough time feeling depressed about losses in my own family, but the school seems to think I should care about these two guys I don’t know. If I mourned every person I didn’t know, I’d be a really sad person.
And I already am a really sad person.
I don’t say anything, because being hostile about it is unnecessary and kind of rude given the scenario. It’s just something I don’t understand.
Why doesn’t death make me as depressed as everyone else?
